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ever since i was a child people kept asking me if i am mexican, filipino, middle eastern, or half white & black, or anything nothing but indonesian. i know people don't know how indonesian looks like. many people say asian all look the same. which it's not true. well...i guess asian yes...but southeast asian NO. truthfully i am indonesian but i'm not sure if i'm full blooded indonesian. i always wonder if my ancestor weren't 100 percent indonesian. i know i might be putting my indonesian heritage down but the truth is my grandparents from my mommy side doesn't look like at all and my dad...well i think he's adopted. lol!! YES ....i do tell my dad that all the time. i'm not a bad daughter i just think he's adopt cause he doesn't even look like none of his siblings at all. which is a good thing. anyways....enough of that back to what i'm just wondering about. majority of my cousins (well...the american ones) looks a bit of indian. a few does too in indo but majority of them are in america. i in the other hand look a bit indian. yes ...i do get ask if i was indian. sometimes i would say i am. ahahahah! but my brother looks more indian than i do. it's funny cause whenever i see a family picture of my family my mom looks ugh....dutch indonesian/indian and my dad well...indian cause he's dark.

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ever since i was a child people kept asking me if i am mexican, filipino, middle eastern, or half white & black, or anything nothing but indonesian. i know people don't know how indonesian looks like. many people say asian all look the same. which it's not true. well...i guess asian yes...but southeast asian NO. truthfully i am indonesian but i'm not sure if i'm full blooded indonesian. i always wonder if my ancestor weren't 100 percent indonesian. i know i might be putting my indonesian heritage down but the truth is my grandparents from my mommy side doesn't look like at all and my dad...well i think he's adopted. lol!! YES ....i do tell my dad that all the time. i'm not a bad daughter i just think he's adopt cause he doesn't even look like none of his siblings at all. which is a good thing. anyways....enough of that back to what i'm just wondering about. majority of my cousins (well...the american ones) looks a bit of indian. a few does too in indo but majority of them are in america. i in the other hand look a bit indian. yes ...i do get ask if i was indian. sometimes i would say i am. ahahahah! but my brother looks more indian than i do. it's funny cause whenever i see a family picture of my family my mom looks ugh....dutch indonesian/indian and my dad well...indian cause he's dark.

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My name is Felicia Darlene but most of my friends & families call me Fel and for those who are super close to me will call me by the nickname they made up. I'm a typical southern california girl who love to learn new things and try new things. i love fashion and beauty. sometimes i think to myself that i might be in the wrong field. but then again...i love how the nursing field is like. yes...i'm currently a nursing student in the philippines. no not my motherland. i'm indonesian and i also look india. don't know why but maybe i might have a trace of indian blood. back to the career i chose in life. being a nurse seems exciting, exhausted and stressful. but one day after graduating and passing the boards i hope to become an adult nurse practitioner.